Sunday, August 17, 2008 ; 10:32 PMY
& Give me the love i never had
Life still life. Fact will not be fake! still need to be accept!Everything is normal but my mood is not. Everything happening today makes me think about daddy.
Nine year passed... the fact of leaving of daddy still can hardly accept. Missed daddy a lot a lot. Today went to supermarket to buy something, saw a lot of fruit. Daddy likes to eat fruits. However when he was sick, he dun even hav chance to choose the fruits that he likes to eat but only eating some fruits with less glucose and even some are very sour. Watching people eating the food that he likes while himself is not allowed to eat, how bad the feeling was.
I miss him a lot. Looking back the photo which he feeding me with botol, playing with me when i was still a small child, i really can't stop the tears from falling off my eyes. I cried. Yes, I cried. I know no matter how hard i tried to forget about the sadness; no matter how much things i tried to do to forget about the sadness.. i still can't manage to do it. Thought of watching some series to make myself happier and avoid from thinking about sad things... however, the series still about the love of a dad.. how funny it was. Signing in friendster, read back the only blog that i wrote. This is the first time I dare to read back the blog after my last posting 1/2 year ago. As expected, tears flooding my eyes again. Saw a lot of commend from friends. Sorry friends, that i only see it after 1/2 year cos i nvr hav the braveness to open it again. Yea, am avoiding it... but at last still need to face. Thank you for the support from all of u. Thank you for everyone who prayed for my dad. Thank you...
B4 my dad leave, I thought that, in this world, no matter wat happen, as long as I wan, I can get through it and forget it in a short period. However, this time... i know my theory didn't work. At least, I haven't get through it til now. No matter wat i am doing, daddy still always appear in my mind. Really dunno is a good thing or a bad thing. No matter wat, I just hav a new experience in mind--"Treasure our family more, treasure the time spend with them even 1 second. Cos... no one will ever know wat is going to happen the next second. A second more for them and for u at that very period maybe equal to thousands years that will nvr able to be earn back anymore".